Lama gila rasanya sara tak update blog...
Hari ni rasa down sangat sampai rasa nak nangis depan lappy ni.. Nak tulis semua benda dalam otak ni..
All this while bukan sara tak nak update blog.. I just dont fell like to share some of my story in this blog.. Let Allah know what is happening, that was just enough...
1st i woould like to tell you guys... Since i was in Uitm, i was so passive, and soooo damn anti-social..
Ohyaaa.. I purposely choose to be like that..
Coz those past experience teach me to be like that..
No... Im not going to search for popularity like Wakil Rakyat anymore..
No.. Im not going to tell the whole world the real me..
No.. Im not going to talk carppy thing and act insane like before..
If i told you some of my story, then you are among the lucky people..Coz now its really hard for people to get know me... I mean the REAL MAISARA ANUAR.
Like some orang tua-tua said...
"Better be silent some times... Just talk when needed"
p/s I wish my ex-school mates/cls mates will not going to be my current cls mates.. They will look me like they just saw a ghost and shout out loud "YOU ARE A DEMON OF MAISARA ANUAR"
Oke... Come to the second point.. (i started to lupa what im going to write here)
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Oh ya! Maybe some of you might notice that i owned a new car based on my tweet..
OhhhhNONONONONO!! Im not going to mention what kind of car i used..
If you guys know what kind of car that i used.. Please be silent.. Please no tell people oke..
SAYA MALU......! Hehehe...
Yela im not anak orang kaya nak pakai kereta mahal2.. Just kereta kecik yg mampu bawak pergi class is just enough...
Oke! Enough merepek..
I just wanna tell you Mr.BLOG that...
Since i owned that thing my life turned to disaster..
At some point i just wish i owned nothing that profitable to the people..
Just cannot hold my tears from dropping when i heard some bad words from some people..
FYI..
I live in my parents house.. And it was 30 min drive to campus.. Plus duit minyak pergi-balik RM10/round trip.. Please know this fact... Please......
Sometimes sara bukan tak nak tumpangkan or what..
Sometimes sara terpaksa kejar masa nak balik sebelum maghrib.. Tak kira penat sara drive kat area Pekan Lama tu lagi...
I wrote all this bcoz sara kecewa sangat2 bila ada sesetengah pihak buat statement yg menyakitkan hati...
sara jenis manusia yang tak reti marah.. But please jgn bagi sara marah.. Or you'll face my demon side..
Oke! Third story i wanna share here...
Some people.. Some people oke.. I REPEAT AGAIN! "SOME PEOPLE"
Said... Cari jodoh time belajar.. And some of my friends do berleter to me if i made a statement
"SAYA NAK KAWIN PADA UMUR 28"
Tak kisah la korang nak berleter kat sara lagi ke lepas baca post ni..
I just with my goal.. "END-UP MY SINGLE DAYS AT 28"
So, here are some reason why i choose to do so..
1) i nak balas budi mak ayah dulu oke.. Atleast i can bring them to makkah with my own money.. That is just enough..
2) i has 2 other siblings that still study.. Just fell like wanna support their education.. Tak payah nak pinjam PTPTN...
3) Nak nak kumpul duit sampai financial dah stable.. Baru fikir nak kawin ke apa.. Kawin awal just not in my mind since i was form1.. *this is serious* Im not going to give my children makan batu oke! Atleast if anything happen to my marriage.. I still can survive..
4)Saya nak belajar jadi isteri yg solehah dan ibu yang baik serta nenek yg rock dulu.. Bila dah cukup ilmu baru pikir nak kawin...
Oke! thats all for today...
Now i dah boleh senyum.... Dah lepas semua geram... hehehe..
Good night ouls.. Assalamualaikum..
Maisara Anuar.
